had managed to subvert my carnal brain by writing my
own zip code instead of his.*
Yet in that four- day interval preceding this unlikely twist of fate,
I was in an altered state of consciousness, one that I now know to
be paradigmatic of the suicidal mind. For example, everything— or,
rather, everyone— seemed so incredibly distant. That’s not just a fig-
ure of speech. It was as though I were seeing the world through the
wrong end of a pair of binoculars. And I had a strange compulsion
to busy myself in homework, which is something that I assure you
1 The Call to Oblivion 1
2 Unlike the Scorpion Girt by Fire 18
3 Betting Odds 48
4 Hacking the Suicidal Mind 86
5 The Things She Told Lorraine 116
6 To Log Off This Mortal Coil 145
7 What Doesn’t Die 175
8 Gray Matter 213
Notes 245 Index 265
Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1- 800- 273- 8255; https://suicidepreventionlifeline
.org/) is a 24- hour, toll- free, confidential suicide prevention hotline available to
anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress.
The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (https://afsp.org/) is a
nonprofit organization exclusively dedicated to understanding and preventing
suicide through research, education, and advocacy, and to reaching out to
people with mental disorders and those impacted by suicide.
Crisis Text Line (https
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iSBN- 13: 978- 0- 226- 28056- 1 (cloth)
iSBN- 13: 978- 0- 226- 28073- 8 (e- book)
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication data
Snyder, Terri L., 1956– author.
The power to die : slavery and suicide in British North America / Terri L.
includes bibliographical references and index.
iSBN 978-0-226-28056-1 (cloth : alk. paper)—iSBN 978-0-226-28073-8
(e-book) 1. Slaves—Suicidal behavior—North America. 2. Slavery—North
America—History. 3. Suicide—United States—History. i. Title.
in this copse of dappled shadows, birds, and well- worn deer tracks,
but this particular tree held out a single giant limb crooked as an
elbow, a branch so deliberately poised that whenever I’d stroll past
it while out with the dogs on our morning walks, it beckoned me.
It was the perfect place, I thought, to hang myself.
I’d had fleeting suicidal feelings since my late teenage years. But
now I was being haunted day and night by what was, in fact, a not
altogether displeasing image of my corpse spinning ever so slowly
from a rope tied around this creaking
isbn-10: 0-226-64560-6 (cloth)
isbn-10: 0-226-64565-7 (paper)
library of congress cataloging-in-publication data
Pape, Robert Anthony, 1960–
Cutting the fuse : the explosion of global suicide terrorism and how to stop it / Robert A. Pape,
James K. Feldman.
“Chicago Project on Security and Terrorism.”
ISBN-13: 978-0-226-64560-5 (cloth: alk. paper)
ISBN-10: 0-226-64560-6 (cloth: alk. paper)
1. Suicide bombings. 2. Terrorists—Suicidal behavior—Middle East. 3. War on Terrorism,
2001–2009. 4. United States—History, Military—21st century. 5